So these past few months have been a little crazy. I'm constantly busy.. But I like it. I go to school Monday through Thursday and work at least five days a week. So far I like all of my classes, although they all are hard and very time consuming. My geology lab is killing me so far. I just dread the thought of it, I mean can you imagine looking at rocks for three hours and having to categorize them. I feel like the biggest nerd being able to identify rocks by their name, hardness, streak, smell, HCL, etc. Anyways, my hard work will definitely pay off once I transfer to the school of my dreams.
A lot has been on my mind lately, from school to personal relationships. I think I just don't want to settle anymore. I spent over two and a half years settling for someone who didn't appreciate me and what I had to offer. I know I shouldn't dwell on the past but sometimes I can't help it because the fact is that is has affected my outlook on things. I thought I knew what I wanted from a relationship but recently I was proven wrong. I met a guy who treats me how I've always wanted to be treated and who does all the right things but how come I'm still not satisfied?
After thinking about it the other night I think I'm just scared to get into another relationship. Which is weird to me because all this time I thought I wanted to be in one. I'm just afraid that the same thing will happen again. I couldn't handle going through it again for the third time.
Okay I'm just rambling on now..
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